Saturday, February 12, 2011

WHOSE VOICE SHALL IT BE: IT'S UP TO YOU

I've taken the liberty of writing an alternative first chapter, written this time from young Miss Becky's perspective, as if she's telling the story as it happens.  The previous one was written from old Mrs. Becky's perspective, as she is recalling it some 35 years later.  Won't you please be so kind as to give it a gander, then leave a comment to let me know which voice is more compelling?  I'd be ever so grateful!

IT'S ABOUT DANG TIME

 Dearest Friends,

Hang onto your hats, guys and gals!  I've got some earthshaking news.  I'm engaged!  Can you believe it?  

Five or six months ago, when John and I parted at the airport, he actually had tears in his eyes, and swore he'd come back to me, but I wasn't so sure.  After all, we'd been dating for three years, and the word marriage had never crossed his lips.  Heck, he never even asked me to go steady!  Of course, I'm pretty sure that was mostly due to our age difference.  The poor guy was so horrified when I admitted my age on our first date.  As if it wasn't bad enough to be a senior dating a freshman, she had to be a seventeen-year-old freshman?  Or, maybe it wasn't my age so much as that prim little voice I used, after he suggested going to his place, to tell him "Nice girls don't go to boy's apartments!"  Geez, I was such a doofus!  Is it any wonder it was at least another month before he asked me out again?

Even then, he made it perfectly clear that, though we might be spending every single Saturday together, and working together in the dorm cafeteria each day, and eating most of our meals together, we were not "going together!"  He said on Fridays I was free to go do whatever, or see whomever, I wanted, because if ever there was a person in dire need of more "experience" before choosing to settle down, it was me!

I suppose I could have talked him out of going, had I been willing to beg and whine, but I was determined not to be the "clingy" type.  I knew he'd had at least two previous relationships with girls like that, and believe me, they did not end well!  He told me once that he doesn't want a wife who lives through her husband and kids.  He wants someone with her own career and passions, who's bold and independent.  After meeting his mother, Theda, I can see why he feels that way.  That woman is a pistol!  So, I do my best not to voice my insecurities -- to be the tough girl he admires, who's putting herself through school with no help from anyone.  I let him go.

It must have been the letters that turned the tide.  Come to find out, I am a darn good letter-writer, and John's none too shabby himself.  What we could never say in person just comes pouring out of our pens, and I feel closer to him now than I did when he left.  Hoowee!  The things that boy puts in a letter!  Why, it'd make your toes curl if I told you, so I won't!  I guess I've become pretty brazen myself, dropping hints about what a great little wifey I'd be, and "not just in the kitchen" (I'm blushing!).

Still, you could've knocked me over with a feather when I finally got an actual phone-call from the guy, and heard him saying "So what d'ya think, Beck?  Should we get married?"  I was so shocked, I must've stood there for a minute with my mouth agape, before I finally got it together and said "Well, it's about dang time!"

4 comments:

Unknown said...

Ah Becky, can I tell you how much I am enjoying this, whether you have "found your voice" yet or not!!

I can certainly see what you were saying about using "young Becky's" voice to aid in achieving the scrapbook/letter/diary effect that you are after for your blog...and I think that you may be right in choosing that option. "Young Becky" really does have a different voice and take on things, even if at this point you feel your recollections are a little spotty. Perhaps though, as you progress through "young Becky's" viewpoints, feelings etc., it will all become clearer, you may find you remember more than you even thought you did!!

Can't wait to read more!

musingegret said...

Compelling? YES! Fresh? YES! Immediately grabs the reader by the lapels with energy and humor and youth? YES, YES, YES! I believe your younger self is shouting to be heard and remembered.... and your present self is listening! Go with it. Every few entries or so your present self could contribute a post that puts in perspective the wisdom learned or even lesson rejected from a long-ago encounter or experience. Be "the time traveler's wife"----bouncing back and forth. It will be so multi-layered, many-textured and dual-voiced. I love young M.B. but I treasure the current day's M.B. all the more for her loooooong view of events and 'how things turned out.'

Remember, you're building a legacy. ;-0
(Oh, yes you are.)

Hill Country Hippie said...

Got several votes via email and facebook, all in favor of keeping current-day Becky's voice, "so that the story inherently includes the reflections over time." The ayes have it!

Hill Country Hippie said...

If only someone had saved some of my letters home from this period - that would have been the perfect way to interject "young Becky's" voice periodically. I do have some from our second round in Indonesia, when we went back with the kids, and hope to put them to good use when it's time to tell those stories!